Simple or is it?

You'd think that your heart would automatically know its over and that it would just turn cold over night, but it doesn't. Even though he has betrayed you and your love, it is so hard to jut mute your feelings. They say it gets easier with time. I don't find that to necessarily be true! It depends on what you're doing! It's been almost eight months since my attack and I still find myself thinking of him from time to time. Sometimes I smile and sometimes I'm mad but nonetheless I think of him often. I sit and wonder why. I wonder how. I wonder what. All the whole knowing that none of that matters!!! So I push forward and find something else to do, something else to occupy my mind. It's not easy, but I know it's the way it has to be for me.